Sunday, 16 December 2007

Christmas Spirit

One of the less pleasant sides of Christmas - going through my card list to send all the cards that Mrs L won't be sending. This includes a number of lady friends from present and past who won't be on the 'family' list. I feel this should be a comforting activity - keeping in touch with old friends, but I feel distressing bouts of jealousy that people I have been very close to, I no longer see, or are no longer that close. Yet there is so much to enjoy about the Christmas period and the very strong family element to mine in particular, that I feel a guilt that I can't just accept the pleasures I have, but still seek more. Is this another sign of wanting to get more and more out of life whilst I've still got the energy?

Perhaps I'm not helping by doing so much Christmas shopping online - lets see whether the day we've planned in Carlisle on Tuesday gets me more fully into a joyful Christmas spirit!

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